And I love you
And I love you.
after rainy days, we get flowers.
So I started with a rainy days photos post but flower photos are more fitting for how you lit up my life. And I love you. It’s hard to find the words when you lose the one that was a huge part of you. And can’t.
But, hey I love you. I hold on to those sweet moments. Although I sometimes lose sight without you. And, it can be hard. But, you were always my light.
You still are.
Sweet cherry blossom photos
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Mood
Tell Me (feat. Saoirse Ronan) – Johnny Jewel
Via Apple Music:
Via Amazon:
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Only you
Only one person in my life at some point could probably say what show this was from. And the scene and characters probably better than me… thank you for loving me so much. I’ll be yours forever.
I always said I wasn’t much of a team player. And well I’m not. But with you, I said I felt like we were a team. Because we were. Just our time was cut way too short. Yet, because of you, I have so many beautiful memories.
Other Mood
Jack’s Lament – Danny Elfman
Via Apple Music:
And a version from Vitamin String Quartet
Also, found via Apple Music:
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And why
We both liked Tim Burton…And this part of the song hits home:
“…there’s something out there far from my home, a longing that I’ve never known.”
Also, though, I find ways to handle grieving. And some of which may be watching shows like “Westworld,” which has some great Vitamin String Quartet songs in it. Or by doing things that we liked to do together, such as planting more and painting.
Which are not all shown here but you took care of the succulents better and they miss you. And there’s another reason for this photo that you would know.
And cooking.
Final thoughts
It hurts tremendously not to spend this birthday with you. You gave me so many beautiful moments, and you deserve a better written post. But I miss you my love.
Always, I am so grateful for the time I had with you, the many beautiful moments you gave to me.
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And another thing..
To readers: this is a frazzled conjecture of thoughts I gradually put together in a very non put together way. This is loss. And grief. It may come late, or it may be too hard to express. Or it may come in waves.
But you do not move on. Perhaps move forward – scared, and as best as you can.
This video (When Someone You Love Dies, There Is No Such Thing as Moving On | Kelley Lynn | TEDxAdelphiUniversity) via YouTube describes it well.
